Sunday, May 29, 2011

5:01 a.m.

  I feel like I am fighting a non stop battle with insomnia!  No joke...The past week or so has been great during they days but gosh awful at night.  I am not sure what's going on but as I sit here and type, it is 5:01 a.m. and I am wide awake.  This is how it's been going for a week or so.  I can sleep when I first get in bed, then around 4:00 a.m. I am as awake as I would normally be around 9:00 or so.  I am not a morning person at all and never have been so this is not working well for me.  As I lay here in bed and type, the light from the computer is shining in my husband's face, so it won't be long before he wakes up and looks at me like I'm crazy...He likes his sleep too, so he doesn't appreciate when I keep him awake.  I guess these early mornings can be a new time for me to blog.  It definitely won't hinder me doing house work etc. because that's not happening this early.  I may be awake but not for sure am not motivated to get up!  
  How is every one's summer going?  I can't believe it is already almost June.  Where is the time going?  The older I get, the faster it seems to go by.  I used to wish it away as a child, always wanting to be older but now I want to STOP it!  I am going on my second year in marriage and knocking on 25's door.  Just a few more days and I will be a quarter of a century old.  I know that is still young but geeze, it's half way to 30!
  Sorry for rambling but these are just my thoughts as of 5:12 a.m.  Does anyone else seem to have this crazy sleep problem???  Surely I'm not the only one.  Maybe it's time to get up and get my day started a little early.  I guess I could start ironing church clothes...Good night, or day for now!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Some People?

"The Lord is not slow about His promise, as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing for any to perish but for all to come to repentance." 2 Peter 3:9
Has anyone heard of this crazed man, Harold Camping?  If so then I am sorry if he has changed your views on God and your Christian beliefs.  This man scoffs God over and over and obviously has a few screws loose.  I am not sure how a God fearing man could even come close to planning the day that Our God would return.  This verse, Matthew 24:36 says it all,   "No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father so, if not even Jesus knows the day or hour, how could the common man?   Here is another verse that simply states the same thing, Then if anyone says to you, ‘Look, here is the Christ!’ or ‘There he is!’ do not believe it. For false christs and false prophets will arise and perform great signs and wonders, so as to lead astray, if possible, even the elect. See, I have told you beforehand. So, if they say to you, ‘Look, he is in the wilderness,’ do not go out. If they say, ‘Look, he is in the inner rooms,’ do not believe itI hate that Christians are being mocked on TV and made a spectacle of, when these people who are saying these things have obviously not researched their OWN BIBLE.  God wants to give everyone the opportunity to come to him before he returns.  There are many countries who have not heard the word of God, and His word promises that he will not return until they have.  So, if you fell for this, then please take a look at your Bible and realize that our God does not work as this lunatic has said. Do not fear God's return but be ready and waiting, his return may not be in our lifetime, but it certainly will happen...Mark 13:32-37 states, "Be on guard, keep awake. For you do not know when the time will come. It is like a man going on a journey, when he leaves home and puts his servants in charge, each with his work, and commands the doorkeeper to stay awake. Therefore stay awake—for you do not know when the master of the house will come, in the evening, or at midnight, or when the rooster crows, or in the morning— lest he come suddenly and find you asleep.And what I say to you I say to all: Stay awake.”     Sorry to be on my soap box but I have been INFURIATED with this man.  Anyone who makes fun or takes my God lightly, breaks my heart.  We are lucky to have such a loving, caring, forgiving Lord, that allows people to turn their backs on Him and then return without being judged.

  One a more cheerful note, my brother in law graduated from Louisiana Tech this Saturday and was one of twelve students who graduated with a 4.0.  There were almost 900 total graduates.  We are so very proud of him.  My sister in law, his fiance also graduated in Speech Pathology on Saturday from ULM.  They make our family smile! Here are a few pics...

Our family!
Melissa and I!

Monday, May 16, 2011

Doing away with the name plate...

    Finally, six months after giving birth to Easton and Parker, we decided it was past time to pick out their head stone.  While most mother's are cuddling their babies, I am struggling to choose the best scripture to put on my children's grave.  I am not bitter, jealous, angry, or mad.  I am simply heart broken.  Like I've said many many times before, God knew what he was doing when he placed Trent and I together.  We agree on all of the BIG things and most of the small things.  Don't get me wrong, we have our fair share of arguments and I am sure many of my friends would testify to this, but they are all silly and over nothing noteworthy.  When it came to choosing the words to place on Easton and Parker's head stone, we agreed as usual.
   Our Saturday started off bright and early, as we had to be in Ruston to make our decisions before 9:00 a.m.  We went in saying that we wanted a black head stone and a very simply scripture or saying.  Nothing to big or bold.  After almost two hours of deliberating, we made our choice and were headed home.  We were glad to find out that we won't have to wait too terribly long, as we were told it would only take 2-3 months to have it in.  If you are wondering what we chose, I won't make you wonder any longer.  We chose a green (yes green) headstone that actually looks dark brown.  It is beautiful (well as beautiful as a head stone can be) we thought it was dark brown and were slightly confused when we were told that it was green.  Only from a forty degree angle does it actually seem green.  It has just the perfect amount of dark brown speckles and just the right gloss finish to make it shine in the sunlight.  It will be perfect..  The top of it reads, McCoy and under that says, Benjamin Parker and Easton Craig.  We chose the verse Psalms 139:14, " I  praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made" and this is right beneath their names.  We struggled with how much of the verse we should put but any of you who have ever dealt with this, know that there is only so much room.  We decided this was our favorite part of the verse and was very special to us due to it being read at the hospital and during the funeral.  It was very fitting.  At the bottom we wanted to write something personal (another reason we had to cut the verse short) and we decided to have "Our Sweet Loves" engraved.  This is what I called the boys from the beginning and they truly were our loves.  Hopefully it will be everything we imagined and will be here in the near future.  I am ready to have something more than a name plate that reads "Easton and Parker Mccoy, infants."  Actually it says Easton and Benjamin due to error but that's ok.  Something about seeing the word infant on a name plate by a huge pile of dirt makes me sick.  So we are more than ready for something beautiful to be in it's place.   I'll leave you with a picture of the color of the head stone.  This is not the shape of the one that we got because there was not one on the lot in the shape and color that we want but you can get an idea of the color.  I also have a picture of another one which is the shape we chose but it is not in the correct color but like I said, you can get the idea of the shape.

Here is the color...

Here is the "green" again...

This speckled one is the shape we chose, but not in this color...
 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,  your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them! 
Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.

This verse gets me through the days!  God knew the "plan" for our lives, and for Easton and Parker's also.  They made me one proud mama and I know Trent would say the same.  We are forever changed (for the better) thanks to our sweet loves!

Friday, May 13, 2011

New Do...

If you are my friend on Facebook then you have probably already seen my new hair...I have been wanting a little change for a while and finally decided to chop it.  Here it is, 7 inches shorter.  I have to say I love it but Trent on the other hand wishes it were still long.  Atleast it will grow back.  Anyway I have to finish packing our clothes for the weekend back home with our family.  Have a great weekend everyone.

The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;
Habakkuk 3:19

Monday, May 9, 2011

My weekend, Mother's Day-March of Dimes!

    This weekend as I said in my previous post, was AMAZING.  As a mother you always want your babies to be recognized and remembered.  I felt just that on Saturday.  I had previously said I was opposed to speaking but was kind of lured into it.  I have to say, it was great to tell about the boys but to tell the ending of our story is somewhat difficult.  Trent and I had many friends and family come out and support us as we walked in memory and in honor of many babies across the nation.  It is overwhelming how many families are affected by prematurity.  I was so happy to have our friends and family with us. 
 As I stood to tell our story, I felt an urge to tell my friend Lucy's story.  There were many families there that had babies born at three and four pounds but none as small as my dear friend Lucy's baby boys.  Let me tell you a little about them.  Her sweet boys were born at just one pound three ounces and one pound two ounces.  They truly had to fight to survive and at four months old they were released from the hospital weighing just four pounds each.  What is truly amazing about sweet Lucy is that these are not her biological children.  Lucy and her husband Mark chose to foster these sweet boys when their lives were so fragile.  That's true love to me.  Right after the boys were born, Lucy was contacted about the babies and she was willing and excited to take on the challenge of raising such small babies with possible special needs.  Marcus, the larger baby of the two, was actually said to have died almost eight times.  Lucy and her husband Mark were on the biggest and bumpiest roller coaster of their lives, as they watched this micro-preemie baby quit breathing time after time.  The boys are now almost two years old and are continuing to thrive and push through their sickness and special needs.  Marcus is quite advanced but is sick more often that not and Jay is yet to crawl or walk.  These babies are so lucky to have Mark and Lucy and I know she would say she is SO blessed to have them.  They are her life and she is a wonderful mother.   I can truly see God shine in her life.  Lucy and Mark chose to foster these babies after suffering from two miscarriages and thoughts that they may never have their own children.  Just three short months after accepting the twins, Lucy found out she was expecting.  Lucy now not only has the twins that will be two in a month but also has a ten month old daughter, and is five months along with her fourth baby. She has devoted her life to her children and has been blessed in many ways.  God knew what he was doing when he gave Lucy all four of her children. I will post a few pictures of them so you can see just how sweet they are.
  Not only was this weekend the MOD but as you all know it was Mother's Day.  I did spend a little bit of time thinking about how I should have two, two month old babies with me at church but this was not the case.  I made it through the day and was quite happy.  Trent let me pick out the most beautiful bench to put at the cemetery and I was so touched that he thought of this. God blessed me with a husband that loves me unconditionally and always lets me know how loved I am.  We will be blessed with more children (hopefully by next mother's day) and they will be perfect.  How could we not? We long to be parents and hope to have three, four, or maybe five of our own.  Our prayers are that God will bless us with the number of children that he sees fit and that we will glorify him in all that we do.   We pray for our children who are not yet here because when they do come, we want them to be annointed with prayer.  I hope you all had a happy mother's day.  Thanks for following me on this journey.  I'll leave you with some pics now, hope you enjoy them.

Remembering Easton and Parker!

Marcus-born at just 1 pound 3 ounces, 11 1/2 inches long.

Jay- 1 pound 2 ounces, 11 1/2 inches long

Trent, Jake, my step mother, mother in law, and father in law.

Cousin Jen who designed our awesome shirts!

Lucy, Mark, her daughter Halla, and twins Jay and Marcus! and my sweet husband!

Mother's Day gift from my precious mom!
Love my mom!

Mother's Day gift from Trent and my sweet mother in law!

Sunday, May 8, 2011

March of Dimes Walk=Huge Success!

  The March of Dimes walk was HUGE success, with over $27,000 raised. Thank you for all of the support and kindness.  I have lots of pictures to share with you and will try to get them uploaded tomorrow, along with the details of the walk and my first mother's day.  We had a great weekend and even made the news. I'll try to get the video's uploaded for you to watch.  Please excuse my crying, I am not the best public speaker, especially when it comes to talking about my boys.  Trent on the other hand was GREAT!
  Here is the site to watch the news.  We were on at 6:00 and 10:00 and both were different.  Trent was interviewed and spoke on the 6:00 news and we were both on at 10:00.  Not knowing that different parts of our interview would be shown at both times, we missed the 10:00 and didn't have it recorded.  Thank goodness my step-mom did so now we have it to keep forever.  I'll figure out how to get the second video on here where we are both speaking but for now you can watch my wonderful husband as I stand along side.  I have to say I am so proud of how well spoken he is.  Just click on the link below to watch.  Trent is near the end of the video!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Sweet Words from A Sweet Friend...

Today I received an unexpected card in the mail and this is what it said...

A Mother's Day Wish

Although it did bring tears to my eyes, it also made me smile that I have made such great friends over the past few months.  April is so precious and has been a great friend that I can talk to about anything.  I am not sure if you have read my past blogs but she too lost her first pregnancy at the beginning of this year.  We have learned alot together and have learned to run to each other when we are down about our "situation". I thank God for giving me great girl friends to lean on during such a tough season in my life.  This coming week will prove to be hard on me but I will make it, we will make it.  I not only have Mother's Day coming up but also the March of Dimes this weekend.  With God, Trent, and my family on my side I will be a stronger person and mother in the future.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Prayers for Pierce...

Baby Pierce is truly a miracle baby in every sense of the word.  Born at just 23 weeks, on April 12, he is puzzling his doctors and nurses as to how he is still alive, the answer is GOD. I will give you his mom's blog so you can read about him if you like.  He and his parents need your prayers immensely.  When this sweet boy was born, the doctor told his parents that he most likely would not survive and four weeks later he's still here, hanging on.  Pierce was given hardly any hope and is showing these doctors how amazing our God is. Although I do not know this family personally I follow his mothers blog and I know she would greatly appreciate the prayers.  The link is,

Then the eyes of the blind shall be opened, and the ears of the deaf unstopped; then shall the lame man leap like a deer, and the tongue of the mute sing for joy. For waters break forth in the wilderness, and streams in the desert.  Isaiah 35:5-6