32 weeks, 2 days

   Can you guys believe that Christmas is almost here again?  It seems like it was just a few months ago.  The older I get the faster my life seems to pass me by.  The same has been for this pregnancy.  It blows me away that we have eight weeks at the most until Canon arrives.  If the specialist is right then we have more like five or six.  I am so excited but nervous at the same time.  I find myself wondering if I am really ready to be a mom and if I will be a good one at that.  When I say "ready" I don't mean, am I ready to have my sweet boy here with me.  I mean "Am I wise enough to care for another human being?"  It just makes me nervous, which I am guessing is normal. 
   I am having more and more contractions now, which I know is normal.  I still take Procardia every four hours to keep them under control but before long I don't know how it will keep them at bay.  When I quit taking it at thirty seven weeks, I feel like I will have them every few minutes.  I was already having fifteen or so an hour at twenty weeks without the meds so I can only imagine that my labor may kick in pretty quickly.  The specialist said that there is a fifty percent chance that I will have him within a week of stopping the medication.  My husband is so excited and it melts my heart.  He has gotten to where he tells me all the things that he and Canon are going to do together when he gets here.  It makes my heart smile.  We are both so in love. 
    I still haven't gotten any Christmas shopping done.  I don't think Trent and I are going to buy each other gifts this year.  We realized today that we haven't even talked about what to get each other.  We both decided that we didn't really need for anything and that we want to save our money for our boy and all the needs that we may have after he is born.  Giving is always so much more fun than receiving to me anyways, so that is what we will do this year.  I hope all of you have a great Christmas and New Year's.  We look forward to spending ours with our family and friends.
  Tomorrow we see the specialist for the last time and it is bittersweet.I love updates from him because we get the best ultrasounds (that is if Canon chooses to cooperate) and lots of updates.  We are anxious to see how big he is since He was one ounce from four pounds a little over two weeks ago.  Please keep Canon in your prayers.  We want him to be very healthy and happy.  I'll update again soon!  Happy Holidays!!!