Week 23 and a devastating few Days...

  According to "What to Expect When Your Expecting", Canon now weighs just over a pound and is around eleven inches long. He is now moving and distorting my tummy.  Trent and I love it.  He melts our heart.  We do miss Parker and Easton an awful lot and the closer Canon's arrival gets the more we miss them.  November 20th will be a year since I had them and that just blows me away. My boys have spent almost whole year in Heaven, what an amazing time I bet they have had but this Mama sure misses them.  Canon will never take their place but he will for sure fill an emptiness that we've been carrying for the past year.  It still blows me away that I have three boys.  They are all three loved more than words can say.

  This week has been a pretty difficult for Trent and I and has definitely been the most devastating days of some of our best friends lives.   This past Monday my dear friend gave birth to her son and was expecting to be home in just a few days from the hospital.  The baby needed surgery but from what we thought, it seemed pretty routine and he would be just fine.  Wednesday morning, there were complications and the baby didn't survive surgery.  I can't imagine their utter shock and disbelief because when I received word of what happened, I could hardly breathe. My situation was nothing like our  friends but to know that they had to feel the pain and torture of losing a child brought back a flood of emotions for Trent and I.  If you will please take a moment and pray for our dear friends.  I have talked about them before on there but for now I am not going to use their names.  They are strong believers and with God I know they will be able to move forward.  We are attending the memorial service tomorrow and I pray that everyone can rejoice for the birth and life of this beautiful little boy.  I know Easton and Parker will love having a new friend, although we wish all three of these precious boys could be here with us.

Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.” Matthew 19:14